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Monday, July 30th, 2007
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5:30 pm
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jambo! i'm home from africa, already am sleep-deprived, and now have bangs.
i think that sums everything up quite nicely?
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just for grins, a quick bit of self-reflection:
fears:
- my malaria medication (baaaaaad dreams)
- drowning
- lack of inspiration
- complacency
- ignorance
- boredom
- lack of love
vices:
- creativity
- hearty laughter
- a good silver lining
- adventure
- kindness of strangers
- networking
- gerber dasies
- smiling
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| Thursday, May 3rd, 2007
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3:58 pm
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| Saturday, April 28th, 2007
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11:12 pm - "she wants to walk the world"
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so, instead of dilligently studying for my final exams like i should be, i planted myself in buckman hall (exam week and the library closes at 7pm--who cares if its saturday night?!) and prepared for a long night of setting up what i wanted to do over the next year with my education task force. upon exiting the classroom that i'm currently sitting in (oh god, teh irony) to the tune of "one," i paused and read the social regulations code posted over the door for the first time in months:
as a member of the rhodes community, i pledge to respect my fellow students, faculty, staff and their property. i will treat others as i would be treated and their property as my own.
all of a sudden, it clicked. two years ago i picked this school randomly out of a book, wrote an essay about how i highly admired the honor code, and here i am. i wonder why i ever doubt what i'm passionate about. it's everywhere.
(this is too funny!)
one of the best things someone told me on my birthday was that they were jealous--i really seemed to know what i wanted out of life, and put myself in a position to do something about it. i sincerely hope that he's right. ohh life, here's to actively enjoying you in the moment!
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a few days ago, i almost cancelled the trip to TZ. in the heat of the moment, my dream wasn't worth severing the relationship i finally have with my mother. i knew in my heart it would work out, that i'd be fine traveling solo.. but, really, at the end of the day, family first. its an interesting self-realization to make, at least to me.
i'll be honest: i'm absolutely terrified for this trip. terrified because of subconscious expectations that i have (wait--there's seriously no guaranteed electricity?). terrified of what i'll see (third world version of camp?!). terrified because i'll be alone (and a female. and white.) terrified because i have no real plan (for the last five weeks.. they sky's the limit! hello..uganda?). terrified because i have no bed (stupid, yes.. but, knowing you have a place to lay your head at night? security is a beautiful thing!).
can i handle it all? not all who wander are lost, you know..
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at 11:11 tonight, i wished to do something of substance with the job i've been given.
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| Thursday, April 26th, 2007
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8:48 pm - twentysomething
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birthdays at college are anti-climactic, unless yours just so happens to fall on your formal weekend. had a hell of a good time dancing the nights of the weekend away with some of my closest friends. such relaxation and celebration? best gift i could've asked for!
i'm not too superstitous to release what i wished for when i blew out my candle: a safe trip and far more excitement than the past year brought (is this possible? read below). i figure, its a leap year: i've got an extra day to work with.. best live it up royally!
classes are officially over for the year, but the work rages on. i'll be happy to have a few moments to think in the next few days, to take in what all happened this past academic (and life) year. as always, the simple glance backwards is almost dizzying.
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as for the trip:
i finally have a passport, airline tickets, health insurance, and am working on the visa.
may 16 - july 26 i'll be in tanzania and east africa
that's three weeks. twenty-one days. i'm horrifically excited!!!
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| Sunday, April 15th, 2007
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10:43 pm
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so it turns out i got the job--
i'm now the education coordinator for stand nationals.
i must keep up to date with what is going on in the conflict areas that stand decides they are looking into (ie what i can come up with) to report back to the rest of the managing committee to determine the campaigns we push for. and, evaluate current and create effective education material on eeeeverythiiing. translation: i am now the mind of stand. kinda sorta.
hooray for finally being able to do what you want :)
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| Wednesday, April 11th, 2007
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4:21 pm - "can't stop this train"
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update on the trip:
- my advisor's close owns a hotel on pemba, an island north of zanzibar, and teaches scuba diving. needless to say, i'm trying to connect with him..discount, anyone?
- my advisor's father-in-law sets up clinics in third world nations. his son (advisor's brother-in-law) who is 21 will probably be in dar es salaam (city i'm stationed in) for the summer helping set up the newest clinic. needless to say, i'm in the works of trying to stay the entire summer to help!!
- on a plane ride from dc to memphis i was seated next to a gentleman who was leaving for his sixth trip to TZ the next morning..no joke. he does work in arusha (city with international criminal tribunal for rwanda) and, after the local phrase list/ places to see list i get from him, i'll be asking for contacts to stay with.
- a guy i go to school with actually has some strange connections into the tribunal.. hopefully i'll get a niiice tour.
- so, after tripping to arkansas last night, i got a personal tour of the hefier,int'l. headquarters by a man who spent quality time in TZ and is setting a meeting up for me with the former hefier regional director that currently lives in..arusha.
- and, while at the actual lecture, found out that three of the students at the clinton school of..something are going to be working specifically for hefier international this summer in..dar es salaam. i might actually be staying in the same hostel as the guys..regardless, i've gotten an unprecidented invitation to visit their work site and see how they do.
in summation: i'll probably be in east africa for the summer. this is absolutely ridiculous..i love it!
lectures:
- lecture board hosted james carville about two weeks ago. ran absolutely flawlessly and i'm damn proud in a sea of badly ran events i've been a part of. carville extended me an invitation to work for him.. considering me "refreshingly genuine" and mentioned that if his two daughters grew up anything like me, he'd be "damn proud". i about flipped when i heard that one.
- saw a bishop from rwanda speak last night at the clinton school in little rock. gave an interesting talk on reconciliation; ironically i was seated next to the ex during the chat.
summits/ conferences:
- sepc: home to all panhellenic boards of sororities, i was surrounded by a million spirited greek women for two days. certainly quite the experience for the token yankee in a sea of ole'miss-type greeks. sadly (ironically?), i was battling coming off of my horrid birth control shot..probably should've been hospitalized for the wicked hives i had. oh well. i had a hearty laugh at the fact that i had no appitite whatsoever..while at a sorority conference.
- summit at the united holocaust museum on the advanced prevention of genocide: went into this having absolutely no idea what to expect. turns out i was one of 25/30ish students from all around teh world invited to have a "discussion" about how to actually be proactive. needless to say, i felt incredibly confused as to why I was there; the kids were wicked impressive. the summit proved disappointing: i got a nice refresher course on everything i knew about the subject with little time to discuss actual questions..if you got us all together in a room, one would expect more than just a history lesson. regardless, i made some amazing conncetions (will be traveling to rwanda over this summer thanks to them!! shhhh, dont tell my mom until i get back.) and ended up staying with naomi, a friend i made through ben's grandfather and teh peace core. we have quite the tale of how we're connected.. crazy world. needless to say, she's a kindered spirit; she'll be doing the education internship at genocide intervention network this summer and i'll *hopefully* get the edcuation coodrinatior job for stand nationals (read: become the mind of the org) and we'll certianly be a force to be reconed with. the freedom i had in dc was refreshing..no cell phone, no emails. love.
as always, much more to say. BUT:
rites of spring is this weekend. i have two HUGE papers due by friday.
next week is formal week, my birthday, and two training retreats i have to plan/ run.
last week holds two 20+ papers; one of which i would much like to publish.
then finals.
TZ or bust.
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| Friday, March 2nd, 2007
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1:01 am
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it's official!
in may, for three weeks, i'll be interning in tanzania.
i'll be working with mentally and physically handicapped children.
and, i'll have my weekends to travel to zanzibar, mt. kilimanjaro, the serengeti desert, lake victoria and (hopefully!!) the international criminal tribunal for rwanda in arusha.
it's taken five years, but i'll be finally traveling to a country in africa that borders the indian ocean, rwanda, and uganda to..have a dream come true.
i finally get to have my own adventure. lets just say that i'm excited.
:)
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| Monday, February 19th, 2007
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11:03 pm
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ron jeremey has touched me and called me sexy.
i thought i'd start with an attention grabber. just got home from a national programming conference.. i astound myself sometimes with how cool i am at times, hah. actually had a great time; met some amazing people, learned some ultra valuable lessons to be used to make the rest of the semester/next year work out via programmng, met hanson. (childhood dream complete? CHECK!) [ron jeremey was also there. no check towards childhood dreams.]
"her unselfishness was not that of a taught system of duties, but of a heart which thoroughly identified itself with the feelings of others, and often went to excess in consideration for them by imaginatively investing their feelings with the intensity of its own. the passion of justice might have been thought to be her strongest feeling, but for her boundless generosity, her lovingness was ever ready to pour itself forth on any or all human beings who were capable of giving the smallest feeling in return." j.s. mill, on his wife
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| Wednesday, February 14th, 2007
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11:07 pm - "hell, madame, is to love no longer."--georges bernardos
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i've been called stoic more times in the past few weeks than i have extremities on my hands and feet. i see no other option than to be strong; being upset only hurts yourself. dont get me wrong, i still deal. remembering the art of the silent cry and working out have become new favorite pastimes.
during the day, life is wonderful. its just the quiet moments that get you, when you realize that, despite all of those amazing people that surround you and know would go to the end of the earth for you, he's still.. not there.
a terrible valentines day post, i know.
i love my friends, my family, my life. i really, really do.
i just also love those that aren't in my life anymore. and to a control freak, who knows that she'll always hope.. its frustrating. but, that's life. everything dulls with time, history has proven this. but lets be honest: i'm impatient.
i'm still human, folks. i just may not appear that way by day.
i laughed to myself when i read this--
"love yields to business. if you seek a way out of love, be busy; you'll be safe then."
ovid, remedia amoris
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| Tuesday, January 30th, 2007
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9:37 pm - "i'm gonna sing my way away from the blues.."
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first lesson of the year: you cannot predict other's actions. all you can do is react.
case study: ben and i broke up. always the stoic, he has decided that work right now is more important than anything else that may be going on in his life. unfortunately for me, i get to fall by the wayside in the heart of my best friend. at least, that's what the surface supplies me for a verbal explanation. i'd bet my life that after an amazing time over christmas break, i started to mean more than just work work work and it scared him enough to try and surpress all feelings for me. i think he's making a huge mistake that'll screws us both over, to put it mildly.
in literal lighter news, i've finally gotten back into the routine of working out.
love is blinding when the timing's never right
oh who am i to beg for difference
finding love in just an instant
well i don't mind (haha, that's a lie!)
at least i've tried, well i tried
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| Thursday, January 11th, 2007
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1:07 pm
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kelsey informed me that every time she hears this song, she thinks of me,
But the people on the street,
Out on buses or on feet,
We all got the same blood flow.
Oh, in society,
Every dollar got a deed,
We all need a place so we can go,
And feel over the rainbow.
But sometimes,
We forget what we got,
Who we are.
Oh who are are not.
I think we gotta chance,
To make it right.
Keep it loose,
Keep it tight.
Keep it tight.
I'm in love with a girl,
Who's in love with the world,
Though I can't help but follow.
Though I know some day,
She is bound to go away,
And stay over the rainbow.
Gotta learn how to let her go.
Over the rainbow.
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| Wednesday, January 3rd, 2007
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5:59 pm
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In the middle of the night
I go walking in my sleep
From the mountains of faith
To the river so deep
I must be lookin' for something
Something sacred I lost
But the river is wide
And it's too hard to cross
even though I know the river is wide
I walk down every evening and stand on the shore
I try to cross to the opposite side
So I can finally find what I've been looking for
I hope it doesn't take the rest of my life
Until I find what it is I've been looking for
i was thinking today about a goofy moment from my visit to arkansas. i was just sitting on a bluff, overlooking the arkansas river and the oklahoma border. there was a sunset, ben was to my left, a swift current was under my feet. if there is ever a movie made about my life, surely this silly image would make it into the screenplay.
i'm not sure why i'm dwelling on this. looking back, it kind of reminds me of that one lyric, "would you not like to be sitting on top of the world with your legs hanging free? would you not like to be ok..?"
maybe i can't get africa now, maybe i can't travel the world just yet. there are a lot of things i will always want, dreams that i will always chase. thinking you know what you want is great.. but happiness might not be quite so far off. there was something so pure, so innocent about that moment. its like, in that few minutes sitting there, everything made sense.
take my brother for another example: never in my life could i imagine him a father (dont hate me, its just that he'll always hold the title of "brother", not "father" first and foremost in my mind). yet, out in portland, he seemed to be the happiest that i have ever seen him, with his new daughter. it was beaming joy, joy that effortlessly transforms those around him. hell, i hope someday i have a family that makes me that estatic!
happiness is everywhere, if you allow it to reveal itself in any situation.
i just really hope that i do not lose sight of this--if i can figure out what makes me happy while living to the absolute fullest, i can't imagine that i'll wake up someday after turning 40, freaking about about lost time, miserable..
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| Sunday, December 31st, 2006
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what am i going to do next year? it simply boils down to this:
Live well,
Learn plenty,
Laugh often,
Love much.
emerson
and, find truth in this world while not looking back.
a free heart will reign, happily.
god bless friends, because simply celebrating with just andre (in any quantity!) would not replace arkansas with ben. :)
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4:01 pm - "when i look back on this ordinary, ordinary life i see so much magic"
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01. What did you do in 2006 that you'd never done before?
met current idols, created others. traveled like crazy. gave a speech on the floor of the un. hung out with bands and traveling dignitaries. ran hospitality. worked nationally and internationally for a cause. took things to teh streets, lying down. survived camp, changed lives, inspired many. incorporated hundreds of people in my visions. built a refugee camp. was called a teacher. mentored. learned how to cook and speak chinese and arabic. fundraise wicked amounts of money. realized what i want to do with my life isn't about ME. questioned everything i stand for. met my breaking point. forgave my past. gambled everyyything for love. became a "bonner"-ified scholar. lost my purity.
02. Did you keep your new year's resolutions?
inyangamugayo: "person of integrity"
its not up for me to decide; i certainly hope i did!
03. Did anyone close to you give birth?
jon and heather--i'm finally an aunt
flora--above applies
04. Did anyone close to you die?
can't say close to me, but in the last few days ford, james brown and saddam hussien died.
[unless you count the hundreds of thousands that were killed in ridiculous conflicts around the world--then absolutely]
05. What countries did you visit?
sigh, sadly none. but i did get quiiite a tour of the us.
06. What would you like to have in 2007 that you lacked in 2006?
my full heart to give to what i actually care about; to not be caught up in past responsibilities that don't mean much at teh end of the day.
07. What date from 2006 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
1.19 -- meeting paul
4.15 -- sitting in the un feeling helpless
7.27 -- last day of camp
12.14 -- sitting in arkansas, staring at oklahoma across the river
08. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
risked everything for the biggest successes.
09. What was your biggest "failure"?
compormising what I wanted to do to please others
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
nah, just had some wicked colds
11. What was the best thing you bought?
..for myself, unless i count the books at the un, i have no idea.
but i did hit a few home runs with christmas gifts.
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
everyone i surrounded myself with!
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
realists?
14. Where did most of your money go?
books and christmas gifts, donations
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
what DIDN'T i get really, really, really excited about? :)
16. What song(s) will always remind you of 2005?
SEXYBACK
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? oh god, so much happier
ii. thinner or fatter? lots to love
iii. richer or poorer? richer in experience and connections
18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
spend more time with those i love instead of "have" to be in meetings
or, traveling
19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
doubting myself, wondering why things happen the way they do
20. How did you spend Christmas [break]?
saw what happily ever after could be in arkansas, went to portland, got stuck in ohio/kentucky, ended up back in wisc.
note: there was no snow, ANYwhere. boo.
22. Did you fall in love in 2006?
healthy, beautiful, recipricated love
23. How many one-night stands?
i mean.. i had good intentions.
but, i did earn the title of "heartbreaker"..
24. What was your favorite TV program?
addicted to scrubs
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
no hate in this heart
26. What was the best book you read?
the book theif
tim allen's book on the lra
27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
philip glass
muse
g love and special sauce
rob blackledge
the format
28. What did you want and get?
to travel, to make some amazing connections, have wicked experiences, to be in the right place at the right time, my fairytale ending
29. What did you want and not get?
africa.
30. What was your favorite film of this year?
blood diamonds really had an effect on me
31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
19: was woken up at 1 am by friends with teh sweetest homemade card and thoughtful gift. started the tradition of wearing the sombrero at molly's. got a small cake from wisc. turned in my application to for africa. earlier in the week, celebrated in nyc with many rounds at the ha! comedy club with my lovely screech and "oc" boys.. a great birthday, really :)
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
..nothing, really. this'll be quite a year to top.
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2006?
bandanas and surgical gloves, pearls and dresses
34. What kept you sane?
my backbone and gut instinct. ben.
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
didn't really pay attention much? my own life was far more entertaining..
36. What political issue stirred you the most?
sudan. somalia. uganda. hussein's trial. midterm elections--a fair wisc votes no..in theory.
37. Who did you miss?
great question; not really sure i have an answer right now.
38. Who was the best new person you met?
all of the inspirational people i met through all of the random expereinces i had; the freshman!
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2006
"i'm a one-man genocide"
"happiness, too, is inevitable"
"kindness is not an illusion, violence is not a rule"
"i dont knwo how to shoot a gun.."
it all works out exactly as it should
there's much, much more to life than just work :)
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
been gopherin, chaufferin, company chairman
coffee maker, copy repairer
there ain't nothing i swear man that i dont do
here comes life boy, ready or not
hey, i wanted it all, and thats what i got
sat and thought the other day how it seems strange
That we could walk through life so blind
And how a lot of people never change.
I'm not trying to say I have the answer
All I know for sure is that we weren't put here
To serve ourselves, that's so selfish
To think that we're put on this earth just for pleasure
I know that there's much more than that.
But I won't tell you what it is; it's up to you
To decide for yourself what is wrong and what is right
And know that we all make mistakes, there's always time
To turn your life around and change
All the wrong decisions that you've made.
And I promise that I won't settle for less.
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| Wednesday, December 13th, 2006
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1:18 pm - "girls in white dresses and raindrops on roses"
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quotes from a few readings in search as i prepare for my final today--
"the pursuit of full humanity, however, cannot be carried out in isolation or individualism, but only in fellowship and solidarity: therefore, it cannot unfold in the antagnistic relations between oppressors and the oppressed. no one can be authentically human while he prevents others from being so. attempting to be more human, individualistically, leads to having more, egotistically: a form of dehumanization." --paolo freire
"authentic liberation--the process of humanization--is not another deposit to be made in men. liberation is a praxis: the action and reflection of men upon their world in order to transform it. those truly committed to teh cause of liberation can accept neither the mechanistic concept of consciousness as an empty vessel to be filled, nor the use of banking methods of domination (propaganda, slogans--deposists) in the name of liberation." --paolo freire
"[problem-posing] affirms men as beings who transcend themselves, who move forward and look ahead, for whom immobility represent a fatal threat, for whom looking at the past must only be as a means of understanding more clearly what and who they are so that they can more wisely build the future." --paolo freire
"..these opportunitites, therefore, made those men fortunate, and their high ability enabled them to recognize the opportunity whereby their country was enobled and made famous." --machiavelli
"the difficulites they have in acquiring it arise in part from the new rules and methods which they are forced to introduce to estabilsh their government and its security. and it ought to be remebered that there is nothing more difficult to take in hand, more perilous to conduct, or more uncertain in its success, than to take the lead in the introduction of a new order of things." --machiavelli
"..the nature of the people is variable, and whilst it is easy to persuade them, it is difficult to fix them in that persuasion. and this it is necessary to take such measures that, when they believe no longer, it may be possible to make them believe by force." --machiavelli
"every one sees what you appear to be, few really know what you are." --machiavelli
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aaand, i'll admit i tried this.. very entertaining results!
[WAKING UP]: it’s raining men – gerri halloway
[FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL]: symphony no.4iii - brahms
[FALLING IN LOVE]: edge of my seat - switchfoot
[FIGHT SONG]: mama mia -- abba
[BREAKING UP]: jet lag – joss stone
[PROM]: gladiator – not yet
[LIFE]: magical lasso – phantom of the opera
[MENTAL BREAKDOWN]: Chinese, dialogue, lesson six
[DRIVING]: slow cheetah – red hot chili peppers
[FLASHBACK]: home life – john mayer
[WEDDING]: when you’re hot, you’re hot – jerry reed
[BIRTH OF CHILD]: if I fall - aqualung
[FINAL BATTLE]: beautiful mistake – rob blackledge
[DEATH SCENE]: the wizard and I - wicked
[FUNERAL SONG]: comfortable – john mayer
[END CREDITS]: build god and then we’ll talk – panic! At the disco
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its funny, this time last year it was snowing. now its about 60 degress.
arakansas tomorrow!! :)
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| Sunday, December 10th, 2006
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7:24 pm - "all human beings are born free and equal in dignity and rights. they are endowed with reason.."
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its international human rights day.
http://www.un.org/events/humanrights/2006/
"Human rights abuses do not occur on paper. They are committed by real people, against real victims, in specific countries.
Of course I know that individuals don't exist in a vacuum. Man is a political and social animal, and individual men and women define their identity by their membership of groups. That's why human rights must always include rights to collective self-expression, which are especially important for minorities.
But no one's identity can be reduced to membership of a single group, be it ethnic, national, religious, or whatever. Each one of us is defined by a unique combination of characteristics that make up our personality. And it is that individual person whose rights must be preserved and respected.
The truth is, it's not enough just to have the right principles and say what we think should happen. We also have to ask who is going to make it happen. Who can we look to for support? Who is going to insist that these principles are acted on?"
Is there anyone who really recalls
Ever breaking rank at all
For something someone yelled real loud one time
Everyone believes
In how they think it ought to be
Belief is a beautiful armor
But makes for the heaviest sword
Like punching under water
You never can hit who you're trying for
Some need the exhibition
And some have to know they tried
It's the chemical weapon
For the war that's raging on inside
We're never gonna win the world
We're never gonna stop the war
We're never gonna beat this
If belief is what we're fighting for
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| Saturday, December 9th, 2006
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9:19 pm - "i'm looking for a dead-end song.."
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three years.
a ridiculous amount of time to pass, eh?
you know the drill. i miss him, i understand what happened or lie to myself and pretend like i do.
i just can't believe how much you allow yourself to forget as time goes on.
i really wonder how he is, what he's doing..what i was replaced with.
maybe.
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on darfur, three+ years too late, but finally with the poltical gumption to speak the truth (--even as a "lame duck" sec.gen!)
"There is more than enough blame to go around," Annan said. "It can be shared among those who value abstract notions of sovereignty more than the lives of real families, those whose reflex of solidarity puts them on the side of governments and not of peoples, and those who fear that action to stop the slaughter would jeopardize their commercial interests."
hold on there's a hole in my heart
and everyone can see right through me
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| Friday, December 1st, 2006
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1:53 am - "if i dont say this now.."
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two discoveries of today:
a) my school is using me as a "face of rhodes" on our homepage; read: i get a professional photo and article posted on the homepage for at least the next year for prospective students and stalkers to check out. creeeepy.
b) i am now a bonner scholar..ie i get a ton of money (!!) for school, service projects and the like. all i have to do is 10 hours of service a week. do i smell a way to get to africa? i say yes.
..i'm exausted. exams start next friday. then christmas break shall be gloriously relaxing in arkansas/portland :)
[i love love.]
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| Tuesday, November 14th, 2006
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12:47 pm - "when the world is on your shoulders.."
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sorry this has turned into one huge list of quotes. its just where i'm at right now.
..and it out to be remembered that there is nothing more difficult to take in hand, more perilous to conduct, or more uncertain in its success, than to take the lead in the new introduction of a new order of things.
--machiaveli
i'm worn out. i've been charged to re-invent the wheel for every single organization and job i have.. and its exhausting. i get angry for the obligation of it, yet.. i know deep down i'd much rather be who i am than anything else.
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the divine never condems any human being as totally bad. the divine wants evildoers to realize the folly of their actions from within; then they will joyfully mend their pernicious ways. give misguided souls a good example, and they will become aware of what a great wonder life is, and naturally reform.
-morihei ueshiba
raaaaandom thought thats been in the back of my mind for much longer than i want to admit to--what if i worked logistics for the military? turns out my mother would be far prouder of me than i had EVER even thought.
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8:10 pm - quoteland
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You know what's wrong with you, Miss-whoever-you-are? You're chicken. You've got no guts. You're afraid to stick out your chin and say okay life's a fact. People do fall in love. People do belong to each other. Cause that's the only chance anybody's got for real happiness. You call yourself a free spirit, a wild thing, and you're terrified somebody's gonna stick you in a cage. Well, baby, you're already in that cage. You built it yourself. It's where ever you go. Because no matter where you run, you just end up running into yourself. -Fred Baby (Breakfast at Tiffany's)
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while searching for books to ask for this holiday season, i stumbled across this quote--
Niebuhr sees no comprehensive solution to this dilemma--the individual motivated by love and society by justice--though he hopes for groups of individuals that may bring about more of it. "Love must strive for something purer than justice if it would attain justice."
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